not very good 21.10

i’m reminded of the time when i stumbled, drunk all the way from my bar to your restaurant. i was unsure of my intentions but all i could think of was you, all consuming, taking all of my brain. i burst through the door after closing sprinting to your open kitchen. you looked shocked to … Continue reading not very good 21.10 →

Untitled 8.6

why do you look at me like that? why do you step closer each time something is revealed about me, as if you’re intrigued? don’t be. there’s nothing to wonder, nothing to uncover or discover about me. does it disappoint you? i’m not a thing that needs saving needs grabbing by the collar and pulled … Continue reading Untitled 8.6 →

Swallow 11.9

Look me in the eye and swallow the sword. Do not blink. Do not choke up. Take it, all in one. Feel the sides of the blade hold your throat open like a tent. I think about death a lot for someone who does not want to die. At least, not yet. I picture myself … Continue reading Swallow 11.9 →

THE FUNERAL

i drove my fagbutt into the gravel outside the church and held my breath as i entered. sliding into a pue at the very back, i wondered if i’d made a mistake. i listened to the priest talk about him like he knew him. as he said the words ‘kind man’ i looked over at … Continue reading THE FUNERAL →

7.8

the lights looked so pretty. i couldn’t take my eyes off them even when he turned to me and said the words. focus on the lights. the way they expand and contract with the focusing and unfocusing of your eyesight. i think of the intricacies of each and every relationship and interaction you encounter. how … Continue reading 7.8 →